Reflection

"When a wise man is advised of his errors, he will reflect on and improve his conduct. When his misconduct is pointed out, a foolish man will not only disregard the advice but rather repeat the same error." Buddha (563 - 483 BC)

As most I have made many errors in my life. In business, in relationships, in friends and partners however I take time to reflect on them and attempt not to repeat the same mistake. Throughout these blogs, I am going to take a deep reflection into my life, the many great accomplishments and the mistakes that accompany them throughout the way. I will post a journal that I kept when I made the biggest mistake of my life, one that was relationship based and then became a business disaster. I will speak of extreme love and the ultimately trials and tribulations of dating an engaged woman. Who was to leave her fiance for me, then ultimately got married to him, then divorced him. My committment to her life and her children was unequivocal, however upon her divorce she left me for another embarrassing man. I didn't sleep for days! I will speak of my lack of judgment in relying on a partner who was a preeminent adult star and how she consistently undermined the progress of our business. I will also speak of the great relationships and love I have experience as well as the business successes I have enjoyed. All along the way, my family has been there for me, like a safety net to provide key advice and catch me if I should ever fall.

I have learned from these mistakes and the ramifications have made me stronger, smarter and much more cautious in my attempt to fulfill this great life that I have been blessed with.

I sit here tonight in the community center on a community computer because the internet network in my condo is down finally appreciating how important that connection is to me. My company depends on it and thus I depend on it. When it goes down, its almost as though my world is filled with confusion because I cannot work and progress our startup company forward.

Also, I reflect on the times that I was told by certain individuals that someone who has come to be a great friend and partner was not noble, righteous and would turn his back on me if I were ever in need. Despite these incessant comments, I continued my friendship and partnership with him, helping him through difficult times and today he has come to my assistance by switching my mobile phone to our new company account. It is no surprise to me. He was caught in the same trap and quicksand that I was, but now we can both look back on that and reflect and assure each other that we will never make the same mistake again.

He and I are in the process of picking up the lives that we have dedicated to a failed partnership that ultimately became a dictatorship of wayward control and are now assuming full control of our destinies. Our outlook long term couldn't be better, however our short term is filled with challenges, and struggle and the perils in life that I have grown to enjoy conquering. It is through reflection that I see these errors clearly and I assure you that I would never be foolish and repeat the same error.